Jahizargh

NOTICE.

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 05:19:56 GMT

my livejournal will be private, (LJ friends only) w.e.f. 15th of March 2009. for awesome buds who don't use LJ, read my blogspot, whatever, or i'll find a way, teeheeheehaawhawhuurhawwhawwhooohurrha.
much love, jahizargh, xxxxoooo.

you

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 05:09:59 GMT

i thought i had lose it already, no hope left in me. nothing to keep my spirit burning through the years and empower me by the constant bouts of adrenaline rush. i thought that this life was just a plain simple hell hole designed to give everyone guilty pleasures be it materialistic or not. each night i stare up at the sky adorned with constellations of stars, all of them winking back at me, willing me to hold on to this complex labyrinth christened life. all those broken promises left by others left a bloody trail, giving me an undying hope that somehow, they'd all keep their promises and see the light of the day. putting on a masque each and every day of my life in the past made me a stronger person on the outside but deep down inside i knew it was just cover up for all those lies. i thought i had lose it.

until i found you.

you who were my harbinger or light and love, of joys and triumph.
you who brought a whole new meaning to the cliche of a phrase, "true love"
you who was with me weathering through the harshest of storms.
you whose incessant smiles always bringing in the warmth from within you.
you whose tight embraces engulfs me in warmth and affection.
you whose affable and infectious personality lightens up the atmosphere.
you, who captured my heart.

though i've said it a thousand times or more, i meant it each time i said it.
& in my heart there's only you and you alone because there simply is no one else in this world who can ever replace you, really.
this 17th of march will mark our fourth month of happiness, joys, laughter, thick and thins, everything.
being with you has gotta be the bestest thing that ever happened in my life, really and each and every time we meet, my heart will always be doing somersaults and the butterflies in my stomach will be fluttering madly at the sheer sight of you.
it seem that i really can't wait to give our 4th anniversary post so i guess here it is, this post then!
&&&& lastly,
iloveyouferariq^^

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 04:35:43 GMT

I MISS MY STUNNINGLY HOT AND HANDSOME, STRAPPING AND ABSOLUTELY CUTE NOT TO MENTION DROP DEAD TURN HEADS ADORABLE BOYFRIEND, FARIQ IRFAN, OH SO MUCH!

yes, i really do ): this whole's week schedule is messed up and totally hectic and bustling with hordes of activities in both of our lives, sighs. even though short meetings i.e last Monday, 9 march 2009, they still ensure us a quick getaway anywhere near home yet we can be close to each other.

i miss your voice, that deep sexy baritone.
i miss your eyes, those stunning peepers which always look so dazzlingly alluring.
i miss your sharp hooked nose, that cute thang which i so love to peck with my lips.
i miss your cupid's bow, always giving me those surprise and meaningful kisses, both passionate & soft.
i miss your little moles, they always get me eggcited, especially the sexayye one on your nose bridge.
i miss your soft luscious hair, the way they smell and the way they enhance your features by a trillion.
i miss your long and lean body, the way they hold me close to you, and keep me warm when i'm shivering.
i miss your beautiful fingers, the sensuality of them when they move around my face or my back.
but overall, i miss you and only you the most.
without you there wouldn't be much laughter, joy, dazzling smiles, love, affection and adoration in my life.
without you there wouldn't be any ounce of patience in this world to bear with me through thick and thin.
without you there wouldn't be any loving source of comfort whom i'll run to when i'm feeling downcast.
without you there wouldn't be any love and meaning to my life right now.
without you i'd have give given hope on everything.
without you, there wouldn'tbe any Fariq Irfan in my life to tell me the rights from the wrongs,
to hug me tightly before i bid goodbyes,
to kiss me softly and erase all my sadness in me,
to be my listening ear when i needed one,
& lastly to tell me the three words that i've always long someone whom i love dearly back to say them to me.

i love you^^v

alrighty, so yesterday was spent going out with my dearest totally awesome Mum who took the day off to do some The Body Shop shopping spree at Suntec Convention Gallery, with me! tehehehehhawherrr. totally awesome ya'all. those who didn't had the time, or either didn't know about it or simply forgotten about it, ya'all can go fy a kite at lbukit timah nature reserve?!?!? HAHAH! no seriously, the sale is totally worth going&& splurging!

i'm really GLAD that i'd actually bothered to wake up around 8:30 am yesterday and take a shower, dress conservatively in a non-drab fashion and head to Suntec with Mum for the sale! yeah! thanks Mum, once again for spending around SGD $ 120 on me today on The Body Shop products since you know how i absolutely adore the brand and love being a member. HAHAHAH. i sound darn annoying.

ohohoh! and there was this one guy who reminds me of best friend! HAHAHA. seriously. and he was buying the same seaweed skincare range as me and i was like, okay is that anni? (herman). HAHAH! then i was like no, it can't be, he's in school right now for the first years registration thang. hurhurr.

alrighty, i'm kinda sorta bit veh lazy to blog more about my life but let's just say that i'd love to head down to the sale ONCE AGAIN! more white musk goodies + seaweed skincare range pretty pweash? *innocent face*

ohohoh! BUT! apart from having a good ol' The Body Shop shopping spree with Mum, we had to endure 1 and a 1/2 hours of queueing time though. it's not much for me, after my g2000 expericence, that's nothing, really. hahaha. but yeah, whee! i now possess more awesome white musk g000dies and seaweed skincare stuff and so many more accessories ++++ more g00dies!

i'm feeling really high right now hahahah and i guss it's because of the mcvities digestive milk chocolate biscuits and my cold cut sandwiches!! teheheheheawrr. called Mum up just now to inform her that i'm heading down to Dover to meet up with my dearest Bbycakes and she allowed me yeahhhh! ^^V
oh and apparently, she told me that there's some annoying caller whom i'll not reveal his/her identity who's been yelling at the tops of her lungs to my mum down the receiver 'cause she thought my Mum was in the wrong when it was SHE, the teacher, who's in the wrong, dammit. read up your notes about N.A.C first will ya before you go venting out your unyielding frustration at other people.

lastly, i'm feeling dang thankful to Mummy dearest for having a totally awesome shopping spree with me yesterday! the body shop spree, the two super awesome canon and nikon camera tees and the grocery shopping which were downright fun!!!! i love you Mumm^^V

alright, i think i'm done right now with my journal. i'm sorry to my friends whom i've cancelled plans cause i can't make it or whatsoever, i really am awfully sorry. i'm missing all of you guys and gal pals, yes all of you.
but i'm missing my dearest even more and i'm really glad i can follow him to jamming later! these little things like going to his jamming sessions matters to him, and so to me, as well. i just want you to know that i'll always be there to spur you on, to be there for you every single time.

SAFIAAAAAAAA^^V

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 13:15:13 GMT

haiihaiiihaiii this is a cute video of my baby cousin, Safia Aaqilah saying my totally cute boyfriend's name, Fariq or, Ferariqqqq! the nickname which i gave him before we got attached, tehehehehehehehawwrrrrhurrr^^V
enjoy enjoy enjoy she is soooo adorable!!!! and she loves me more than Kakak Nana, i'm mean, but it's true ^^V

kinder joy! :D

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 14:19:04 GMT

haiiiii! okay okay i'm like really highpurr cause i just consumed kinder joy which my dearest Ferariqqq Bby gave to me just now and i'm like so hairpee cause IT'S KINDER JOY!!! omgawssshhhh i know, right??!?!? he gave me Kinder Joy so i gave him Kinder Bueno! tralalala. HAHAH. i'm thrilled but the toy is a ... sailboat? cute! ahaha. ^^V

alright, so i'm reading Jeffrey Archer's False Impression for the umpteenth time tsktsk, cause i just feel like it. thehehehee. but i'm yet to go on a book shopping spree soon, hurhurrr. speaking of sprees, Mummy and i will be going to the body shop members preview sale on the 11th at 10am, at suntec then at 11 am onwards it'll be opened to the public. pfft. there's a list of things i wanna get from there.. yet again... omgawshh... stop spending, jahizargh!

butbutbutt, i miss my Ferariqqqqq Bby oh so much you know! sighs, i really wanna meet him and it's death + agony + torture when i don't get to see/meet up with him*sobs*. i'll be meeting my cousin and aunt tomorrow to have lunch at i-do-not-have-the-foggiest-idea-where and i don't even know what time are we scheduled to meet >_>

oh! andandand the noise! singapore tee shirt which Mum got for me cause she being in N.A.C and all, she's like the main organizer or whatever and omgawssshhh the tee is hot!!!! like, drop dead you must have it kind of tee! tehehehe. alright i don't wanna blab about annoying things cause i'm having my omfgawssh super beyond pain monthly cramps and they hurt the core so yeah and i wanna talk to my Ferariqqqqq Bby so good bye, good night and have an awesome dream dear readers, ^^v xxxxoooo

FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD!

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 14:48:01 GMT

yes i'm so mean!!! alright i'm damn bored. i shall post tantalising peeks of awesome food which looks really really sinfully and incredibly tempting as well as omgawsshh! just cause i feel like it! i am M-E-A-N *evil grin*. the smiley fries is cute ain't it? i shall cook them when i'm feeling sad, i know i know! alexandre evans does them too! HAHAHA fanatic much. oh oh, i love tose macaroons too... look at those ooey goey chocolate sauce! and those endless sushi!!! ah yes yes i'm so mean. do drool now ^^V

so i just watched lara croft tomb raider; the cradle of life for like the umpteenth time on channel five but it's still electrifying + awesome! ohmygawsssh! thrilling the jacob & edward! i'm kinda feeling vehhhh bouncy and hairpee right now cause well, Bby and i kinda uhm, talked things out and we are resolving to start afresh from tomorrow, or you could say, today onwards! yeayyyy! he's off having dinner @ simpang with his dearest family while i'm at home sms-ing him non-stop! gawsshhh i miss my Ferariqqq Bby oh so much x infinity you know )':

&&& since it's a sunday, my parents and i usually head down to an awesome food centre anywhere around sunny side up singapore but today, well, i just didn't wanna go! hahaha. yesterday's dinner was totally awesome though! since it was my turn to choose our dining spot, i chose to eat at my favourite food place, THE RAILWAY STATION! yesyesyes! had my usual "baseball potato soto" which is a gigantic potato ball with meat stuffed inside it and yes, it's like a baseball but, BIGGER!!!!! >_>

awesome! daddy bought 10 sticks of satay and some meat soup with sliced french bread and i ate 7 out of the 10 sticks! O.O big appetite, this jahizargh tralalala. i know you love the food peeks at the top of this post, don't you? teheheheheheheheheheeeehawhur. i'm done i think, so good night everyone! may all your foodislicious tantalizingly and sinfully indulgent foodie dreams come true! xxxxxooooo! ^^V!

alone

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 11:02:47 GMT

because it hurts when i spark off those arguments it hurts when i made you annoyed it hurts when all i wanna do is cuddle up in my quilt and shut myself away from the rest of the world because it hurts when i sleep at 2 am in morning thinking of all my mistakes because it hurts when i feel that i don't deserve you because it hurts that i made you take on a roller coaster ride of emotions this whole week with our incessant fights because it hurts when i can't seem to do anything right because it hurts when every single day of this whole week has me breaking down in tears at least 3 - 5 times a day either with you knowing or not because it hurts when i want nothing more than to make you happy but i can't seem to do it for this whole stretch of week cause everything i do seem to make everything not right and wrong because it hurts seeing her on your page because it hurts just thinking about all those fights we had because it hurts that i made you sad and annoyed because it hurts when you were always there for me trying to cheer me up when we're together yet i kept quiet and not say a word because it hurts that i feel alone because it hurts now that i'm all alone behind these desktop screen wiping away hot salty and scorching tears away from my warm cheeks because it hurts that i don't feel accomplished every time i can't make you happy because it hurts when i all want is for you to lead a happy life because it hurts that i don't want this week to jeopardize our relationship because it hurts that i made you stayed patient with me because it hurts to think that just because of jealousy we fight because...it hurts....i'm sorry.

it hurts, badly.

you're too late

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 10:37:01 GMT

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

i'm the music that you dance to!

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 05:08:14 GMT

hahaha can you spot me? i'm being blocked by uh... shucks i forgot his name!!!
(taken last year November for the annual NEA fashion show tralalalala~)

g0000d afternoon everyone! today is a Friday a.k.a the start of the weekend and that means a much wanted break to those people out there who are 1) at work 2)in primary, secondary, pre-u schools 3) (idk what) hehe.

i'm going to meet Bby in like, around less than 2 hours time and we're so gonna have fun and be uber random and get high on cloud nine hundred and ninety-nine and take many peektures and enjoy ourselves!! tralalalalaaaa. i'm feeling absolutely thrilled and electrified right now cause.... well, I'M GOING OUT TO MEET MY BBYCAKES!!!!

" (post edited @ 8:49p.m. again) OHHHOHHHOHHH!!! Bby has found a new thrilling past time when we converse on the phone; blowing into the mouth piece when he talks and so, me, at the other end of the receiver will hear that "sww00000shhhh0000shhh" sound! hahaha Bby's so cute plus adorable lah! tehehe. he does that to annoy me cause i started to annoy him with the incessant "minemineminemineminemineminemineminemineminemineminemine" thingy ^^V oh, best friend (Herman/Annnnni) was working at Guardian Parkway Parade today. he didn't see us )': i'm so vehhhh sad. texted him and he felt super bad that he didn't really see us and all and that i couldn't say haiii to him. wah. )': but i'm even more sad to the core 'cause i miss my Bbycakes! waahhhh. alright i wanna explore something and reply Bby's texts so uhm, enjoy the rest of the post!!!??!?!?!? :D "

i've been listening to a lot of Saosin lately and it felt really awesome to be back in Saosin-ism mania once again! their debut album released in November 2006 is still playing non-stop on my stereo system tehehehawrrargh and i'm currently obsessed with track 12; Some Sense Of Security! don't ask me why but i still love them (Saosin) to beads and bracelets and handbags to gladrags! hahaha alright enough enough enough of me ooohing and aaaahing about my Saosin fetishism teheheheheheeeeeeeeeee.

so i painted a small lil part of my room yesterday and today it looks kinda awesome + electrifying! i painted a flower with like 111+ petals with black outlines and now all i have to do is to paint the petals in splashes of bright and dazzling colours! tehehehe. i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait!! but i'm getting more impatient to meet my my dearest Bby! waaaaaaaahhhhh.

i had fun eating breakfast today for some weird reasons cause i just felt.... high!? hahaha. i was relishing the thought of pinching my Dearest's cheeks later on cause he always pinch mine so i shall pinch his today! *egggcited +++ thrilled face*. i ate around 7 ice-cold sushi and 2 small blueberry pies for breakfast and now i think if i eat any more i'll get... higher?!?!?!?!??!?

okay i l0ve all of you right now and today but tomorrow and the next day and the days to come also but now i shall get ready to meet Bbycakes tehehehe. so good day, good afternoon, have a good lunch &&& have a good + awesome + electrifying day today! xxxxxxxoooooo

say(o)seen

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 10:09:27 GMT

being home alone today isn't entirely bad as well, i managed to get a few things done, bahahahahawwwww, i.e., loading the washing machine with clothes, hanging them, cleaning the house, etc. oh and MSN is being a vehh big meanie cause i can't sign in -_- ohmygay!?!? pfft. and Safari basically sucks, for today only 'cause i'm using M. Firefox and i totally hate the fonts and graphics on Firefox!!!! everything looks so... eeeewwwwwww. seriously, it's like a totally different world altogether and i'm so not enjoying my Firefox surfing sprees. i'm still praying for my Safari to work a.s.a.p because i'm a diehard Safari fan/user.

NO SAFARI = annoying Internet fonts + weird popouts + i just abhor using mozilla firefox i don't like. oh i know most people use M. Firefox but i'm not you, okay? TRY SAFARI PEOPLE!!!! it's like, 987654321 times better! your fonts, graphics, images, surfing speeds are way better and looks so much clearer on Apple Safari!

okay, enough of me oooohing and aaaaahing over the glorious Safari. i think i shall paint my room right now and head to the cold showers... they're calling out to me and i can't resist, HAHAHA. oh btw, did anyone hear of that complete asshole who ripped off my awesome cousin's Twilight Singapore's Twilight Movie Premiere footage videos in Japan? that complete arse should be dismembered and chopped to pieces and be burnt in the fire. i'm sorry if i sound like a complete sadist but like ohmygay? if the videos ain't yours and you feel like fucking RIPPING it, at least FUCKING credit it alright? beeeeeeeeyotch. i'm mean alright.

oh, on a lighter note, i talked to Bbycakes on the phone twice earlier today! ohmygawwwwssshh i feel so hairpee and on top of the world! oh but i'm sorry alright about like ykw and that thing. reall,y i'm sorry but at least we ended off both convos with us being hairpee, right? ^^V he's off to SP right now with his awesome + nonsensical friends for the meeting thingy. he'll be at camp for the preparation of the S. Virgo trip next week and the camp will commence on the 9th.

I.AM.GOING.TO.DIE!!!!!!!

wait, not only am i going to die, i will die a slow and painful death too!! ohmygawssssh. sighs, i miss him so much right now and he being away for 4D3N next week and 4D3N the next three weeks will have me missing him 8974867657643759374269759376974354119827584376985968 times more!! sighs.

&&&&& i know my new blog + lj song is cool yes/no? tehehehawrrrhawrraawrrrargh! alright i must dl + print some tabs for my dearest Bbycakes and i must shower and i must paint some nice murals on my room so good bye, good day, good evening and have a good night later dear readers! xxxxxxooooooo

& speaking of which, i miss these awesome friends sooo vehhh muchhh!

i miss all of you awesome best/close/good friends to beads and bracelets and handbags and gladrags.

Bby,
Bbycakes,
Darling,
Dearest,
Fariq,
Fariq!,
Ferariq,
Ferariqq,
Ferariqqq.
ILoveYou!
^^V

my Bbycakes^^

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 15:04:38 GMT

alright! i can finally get on the desktop and update my LJ tehehehawhawhurhurrrr. this week's has been a really hectic week so far, but i think it's more hectic for my dearest Bbycakes, sighs. he's been sending his awesome Dad to work 'cause the Verna was sent for servicing, hurhurrr. Fiqah H.'s birthday was on Tuesday, Izzah Nazurah's BURSTDAY was yesterday, i posted on Blogger already btw so don't kill/murder/man-slaughter me okay! but since i'm your really awesome and thoughtful (HAHAHAHAH!) and i so totally thionk you're vehh electrifying i shall wish you again on my beautiful LJ!

Happy Hairpaayyyyyee Sweet/Salted 7eventeen Burstday To You My Dear Girl! may all your wishes, dreams, fantasies - nightmares come true alrightyy? oh, and don't forget to start off your Poly life with a bang and more more more fire okay? HEH. make sure you'll remember to buy instant noodles from 7 Eleven down there. i kinda miss RP for reasons being i like the uhm... pebbles, k no, i mean the minimalism architecture. OKAY GOOD DAY IZZAH!

well then, today was really well spent and totally worth every second and moment of it! yesterday was awesome as well! we headed to Vivo City to catch the Pink Panther 2 on the silver screen yet again. we walked around Vivo for LJS hahaha and spent some quality time at the Sky Park looking at ships and taking pics and being super random! oh yesterday, it was raining bats and frogs and so i brought along miss strawberry umbrella. hehe. it's QUTTEEE!!

we walked around Vivo and headed back to the east side once the movie was over and walked around somewhere. i took 21 back home and Bby fetched his Dad at Plaza Sing. hectic day, heh.

today, we spent some good ol' quality time together and had major fun as always! once again, i'm real sorry about being like 41 minutes late today. i forgot to grab my afult ez-link card and had to check the house (OCD) and all. i'm awfully sorry Bby )': ohoh, so we took 65 from my bus stop and oh!mygawdddd the two bus stops at my place were like chock-full with Damai sec students, no offence best friend haha. but yeah, back in my BDS days, the bus stop there weren't as chock-full as today oh!mygawdd....

right. bussed to Bugis and we walked all the way to Beat Merchants. was like, late yet again, thanks to me but yeah we reached there around 4 and watched Roy's band jammed to totally electrifying songs! hahaha. i thought he sounded like Shawn Milke but Bby told me on the way there that he's influenced by Saosin, yes? yeah! sounds more Cove Reber rather then Shawn Milke-y hehe.

the jamming session ended at like 5 and i told Bby that i was craving for Zam Zam's Murtabak! (!!!!!!!!!!!) HAHAHA! really really. Ming overheard so Farid, Ming, Malik, Bby and me headed to Zam Zam to eat murtabaks, tehehehehehe. Bby and i ordered the $6 beef murtabak and the other dudes had the $9 chicken murtabak. same size, different prices, heh. ate, talked and annoyed Bby. THRILLING YOU KNOW!!! teheehawrrhawrr.

then Bby sent me home and we hugged at my bus stop, waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh *sobbing*.
i miss him like *(^&%#@$@89675654%#@$#^!!! no matter what, i'll still love you Bbycakes^^V
xoxo

"we fight yes we do,
yet you still stood by me,
and i'm grateful for that,
no matter what,
i'll always be by your side,
because i know,
this relationship
is worth every heart,
body,
mind and soul alike."

for you, i will

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 14:34:44 GMT

haiii there! it's been a few days since i last blogged here heh. well here goes! first of all i'd like to wish yet again, this time on my Safari, a Happy Hairpee Birthday To Fiqah H., a.k.a, Bby's little sister! may all your wishes and dreams and fantasies and all come true all vehhvehh sweetly for you! tehehehawhawhurhur. so i searched for a cake on the net for her, one that she might find interesting. Voila! there it is on the left hurhurrr. so cute yes/no??? i love the butterflies!!! tehehehehawhawhurhur. okay so i spent my day at Kakak Nana's house today heh. i tripped on the flight of stairs at home when i tried to go down and get myself a glass of water -_- ohmyg! i'm such a klutz xxxx infinity. okay well took 21 to Pasir Ris Interchange and took 403 to her house at Pasir Ris Terrace! heh. we cooked spaghetti with meatballs ala Jamie Oliver style and gosh! the end product was FANTABULOUS &&&&& SUPER DEEEELISH! ^^V we watched Finding Nemo on the flat screen and gosh it's so hilarious hahaha even though i watched it before i still can't help but laugh! then Kakak went online and i read Meg Cabot's "Every Boy's Got One" gah, shall get it from Times maybe soon. i'm stuck at page 135 pfft! oh anyways, i wasn't in the best of moods today but rather, feeling down in the dumps since morning ): hahaha. so during my ride home onboard 21 just now, i saw a rainbow!

YES YES A REAL ONE! GOSH, IT'S SUCH AN ABSOLUTE STUNNER YOU KNOW? SOMEHOW AT TIMES, WHEN I'M FEELING RATHER DEPRESSED THE WEATHER REFLECTS MY MOOD UNCANNILY AND IT SEEMED THAT THE RAINBOW CHEERED ME UP!!! TEHEHE. HOWEVER, I FELT REALLY MELANCHOLIC 'CAUSE BBYCAKES WASN'T THERE WITH ME WHEN I SAW THE BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW JUST NOW )': HURHURRRR. I MISS HIM OH SO MUCH! I REALLY CANNOT WAIT FOR TOMORROW TO COME YOU KNOW, REALLY. NOT SEEING HIM FOR LIKE, ALMOST THREE DAYS, IS LIKE, DEATH TO ME. AND NOT ONLY THAT, HE'S AN INTEGRAL PART OF MY LIFE TOO AND NOT BEING WITH HIM WHEN THE RAIN IS POURING BATS AND FROGS AND THE WEATHER GETS HARSHER EVERY MINUTE AND WHEN THE JOURNEY HOME GETS TERRIBLY COLD IN THE HEAVILY AIR CONDITIONED BUS MAKES ME FEEL SO EMPTY. I WISH YOU WERE HERE NOW BBY. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I MISS YOU ):

"even the blindest man on earth can see how much i love you."

blogger is being such a pain the arse so i shall update my LJ too, heh. it looks way gazillion times nicer, thank you.

Je T'aime Fariq Irfan!

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 14:10:43 GMT

Je T'aime Fariq Irfan,

(here's the many peeks of my hot and adorable soulmate^^, cute yes? MINE K!)

oh haiii there fellow awesome earthlings! today was really fun and eggciting cause yes, i spent it with my beloved Bbycakes tehehehe. we watched Pink Panther 2 at Shaw Lido since Mum gave me two movie vouchers to be used at any Shaw cinemas, so yeah. the movie was totally awesome, being such a hilarious movie which is so totally worth watching again and again! really, really! i had fun laughing like there's no tomorrow with Dearest in the theatre, heh.

sorry to Idah-Oh cause i really couldn't attend to your BBQ pit, my Mum really didn't allow me to head down there, she only allowed me to watch a movie with Fariq. i'm real sorry. i really am.

so, since i said earlier this day to Bby that i shall blog about him, i'll do so, right now. but before that, i'd like to umm, clear my system about this "L.O.V.E" topic. and this is from my own personal judgement, so just bear with it alright? (:

every one in this world will sooner or later feel the loneliness in their lives and would want to find a life partner to fill in the emptiness in them and bring in those endless rays of sunshine to them, every single day. of course, having a life partner doesn't entirely ensure you of 25/7 happiness without the usual squabbles, yes? having someone to be there for you every single day, means someone, to be by your side when you need them the most, someone you can lend a listening ear to when they are facing a mid-life crisis, someone YOU could lend a listening ear to when THEY are the ones having THEIR mid-life crisis, someone that would be with you through thick and thin, someone who'd bring smiles to your faces, someone who would be the one who'll bring breakfast to you in bed when you're sick, someone who'll lend you a shoulder to cry on when you feel like your whole world is crashing down, someone who'll go star-gazing with you, someone who'll watch the sunsets with you, someone who'll always be by your side no matter what cause they care for you and your well being and lastly, someone who'll love you just the way you are, inside out.

yes, those singletons out there might be sceptical about so called finding "the right one", but even so, somehow, sooner or later in life, wouldn't they or you, perhaps, would feel that your friends aren't always there for you when you needed them? and also, they might not be the listening ear or the source of comfort you've always been yearning for yes/no? trust me, i know how that feels, and i would also know how it feels to completely abhor the opposite sex after what you've been through when you were with them, in an earlier phase of your life which you've outgrown, right now.

okay, enough talking about this so called "hate/love", i shall continue about Bbycakes right now.

An Angel Sent From God Above Named Fariq Irfan.

when i first got together with him, i felt something changing in my life, like a weight is lifting off my shoulders, really. building a wall around me back then made me a rather well, hollow person, someone who was kinda devoid of emotions? i don't show it but i felt it. and when i built a wall outside of me, i'm creating a so called masque whatever i was hiding inside to show the rest of the world that i'm happy with life, when i actually wasn't. yeah yeah, you can hate me all you want but why read my blog when you despise me? i find it absolutely strange, but it's alright, cause i relish the attention! haha.

okay well, back to the topic. when i was with him, it was like waking up from a deep and endless dream, or what was rather, an incessant nightmare that haunted me for so long. all those exes of mine, well they made me abhor the opposite sex to a fault thanks to their actions and the constant pressure of keeping those failed relationships alive. those failed relationships scarred my life inside out. they were the reasons why i so often bottle up all my feelings and emotions, and kept my thoughts to myself as well as daydream a lot.

hmm, this Fariq Irfan, he was someone completely different than any other human being in this planet that i've met, really. like in out Love Story i typed out in my LiveJournal, the first date with him already had me knee-deep in what was going to be, a feeling in this world called "LOVE", yes love. his austere way of dressing up was not like any other average guy on the street and the way his lips seem to move fluidly whilst talking had me completely enraptured in his spell, not in a bad way but in a really good way. i know right away that this guy was like a diamond among all those broken stones and pebbles. he was the guy that would sooner or later be my ray of sunshine, every single day following our very first date.

however, i also felt amused that i managed to snag his attention and having a first date with him. what could a plain Jane like me, attract an absolute stunner like him? i do not have the foggiest idea why, really. from the way he walks to the way he gets random with me, to the way he eats and the way he laughs gleefully, i was completely awestruck, i was. apart from being a guy oozing with simplicity, he was also a guy who is very chivalrous, always asking me politely if he could take a sip out of my bottle of water or that he could share our food together. being this chivalrous made me feel so loved and that i could also see myself being a more polite person.

him being very chivalrous is just one of the incessant absolute stunners of this guy, really. when i told him flat out that i was fine or when a quiet "nothing" escapes from my chapped lips, he'll know that something was definitely wrong. yeah, you could argue with me till dawn that your boyfriend asks you too but maybe, your boyfriend asked you just for the sake of asking you, and not for reasons that he's worried about you. if he was really worried about you, he'd comfort you and hug you tightly, whisper in your ears that everything will be fine, giving you a slow and steady approach about what is really bothering you, wipe away your salty tears, give you a soft peck on your cheek/nose and tell you that no matter what, he'll always be there for you? perhaps all that i've mentioned in the above sentence are what YOUR boyfriend might be giving you, but for Fariq Irfan, he's more than that.

he'll look me in the eye and ask me what really is the matter that's bothering me and if i brush him off, he'll pull my arm lightly and bring me close to him and ask me yet again. if i still relent, he'll try his utmost best to cheer me up with his antics, be it giving me random jokes or funny comments, just about anything under the sun! he won't give up in pursuing the matter, he won't until i'll finally give in and spill my heart out.

in addition to being a caring soulmate, he'll also see to it that when we're out together, we'll have fun, every single time, no matter where we are headed to. he'll give me surprise hugs and kisses, even when we are walking! really, those little surprises just give me a spring in my step and a smile on my face. even though they are little actions, they are those that will have you grinning from ear to ear the whole day and will have you floating on cloud nine, really. who needs bouquet of roses delivered to your doorstep every single day when you've got a significant other who loves you dearly and does cute little things to show you how much he loves you and care for you? a significant other who'll go out of his way and sms you with lovely texts even when he's busy in school, a significant other who loves surprising you from behind, a significant other who'll even ask his Mum permission to accompany you after work to eat dinner with you cause you're alone and ravenous and is shivering from head to toe due to fatigue, a significant other who was your shoulder to cry on when you had a bad hair cut, or so you thought it was, a significant other who was there so console you when your Dad was against you, a significant other who'd endure long walks just to accompany you in obtaining your precious beads, a significant other who cherishes every moment spent with you during every outings/dates, a significant other who completes your half finished sentences because you both think alike, a significant other who taught you those rights from wrongs and lastly, a significant other who love you for who you really are.

this Fariq Irfan, he's not only all those characteristics that i've listed above, he's more to it than meets the eye. he likes to deny the fact that he's hot, cute, adorable, drop dead gorgeous, amiable, stunning, electrifying, practically everything that i've complimented him on. he feels that he's just a plain ordinary guy which simplicity is his chosen style and until now, he does not understand why i find him so attractive on the outside and but of course, the outside too.

hailing from a humble background, he's not like those guys on the streets who'll break their banks just to purchase an Agnes B. shirt or a Fred Perry shirt or even, a pair of high-end fashion sneakers which can really fetch up to perhaps, SGD$200+++. he's also not those types who'll brag from one end to another about his possession and all just because he feels like it. no he's like an angel, very modest in person and someone who'll have a simple lunch takeout that would amount no more than 5 dollars and wouldn't splurge on drop dead expensive stuffs.

you see people, being materialistic isn't exactly everything, would you rather have all the riches in the world and be friendless or would you have only a few riches to spend on and have a circle of friends AND a significant other which you'd love to spend on? which would you choose? of course, those materialistic human beings out there would choose the earlier but i bet majority of you would take the latter yes?

who needs money when you've got a great significant other to spend the rest of your life with?

who needs all the expensive possessions in the world when you know that you've got a special someone to cherish you with love, love and more love, straight from the heart?

who needs?

why you tell me, dear reader.

for you see, to me, this guy, this Fariq Irfan, he's taught me a whole new meaning to life. he taught me how to love someone with all your heart and to be loved from the same person back. he taught me that brutal honesty is the way to go, the way to live your life. he taught me that money isn't everything. he taught me that kissing underneath the stars or while the sun is setting is something more worthwhile than to spend that precious time unnecessarily window shopping. he taught me the true meaning of love. and lastly, he taught me how wonderful life is, just by being with him. (:

iloveyouFariqIrfanB.Shariffudin,

i do.

forever and always.

xoxo

understanding

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 05:23:03 GMT

i've fruitfully spent my Tuesday and Wednesday with this sungguh cute totally adorable super drop dead gorgeous plus not to mention handsome and really caring patient and kind boyfriend of mine(:

on tuesday we walked around orchard, suntec and e! hub to get a few things. hurhur. i shall not mention it here heh. initial plan was to umm, watch a movie yes B? heh. but didn't, right. so yesterday was veh veh veh fun and eggciting! we went somewhere where there were vehh little people and had the whole day to ourselves. awesome? YEAH!

i feel like buying more oversized tees, long sleeved ones, grey tights, high-waisted knee skirts and many more. gosh, the list goes on! tehehehe. oh oh, once i can go out shopping once again i shall bring my beloved Bbycakes with me and together, we can shop till we drop! yeay. i think he's hot! no really, he's on webcam right now and he looks like... stunning? ^^ i miss him so so veh veh beary much now i can really cry hurhurr. can't wait to see him once more, maybe later, perhaps? (:

oh, and i'm really glad/hairpee that my Mum approves of me being with Bby, really! hahaha, i love my Mum! she's been there for me since, forever? yeah, she's the best Mum and one could ever ask for. she's caring, understanding and she knows what it's like to well, be inside my shoes, all the hardships, the suffering, but i'm leaving my scarred past behind, and starting life afresh with Bbycakes(:

so yeah, Mum is really fascinated by Bby and his life, family, polytechnic life, everything! and she likes him 'cause she knows he's the right guy for me, which i wholeheartedly agreed to! like, of course! she also thinks he's good cause he has this really kind face, and the way he dresses up is so simple, so very austere but it's like he's a magnet. just by looking at him the other day, she knows that's a good guy, not like those you know, P-L-A-Y-E-R-S. yeah! okay, well i think i'm done here, tehehe. and i know you all love my LJ + Blogspot song but you don't know it.
teheheheheehhawhawhurhur. okay goodbye everyone, and have a nice day! xoxo

"All of these guards they stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around what was once innocent
It won't let me in, but I'm stronger than that
'Cause you stole my eyes and I've never looked back"

Idah-Oh Sweet 7eventeen!

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 06:27:37 GMT

Happy Hairpee Sweet 7eventeen To You Idah-Oh/Aidah!

alrighty, i've known her since secondary one and have been close to her in secondary two. gosh, i miss this girl so much! she's fun, hyper, awesome, electrifying, honest, merry, amiable, jovial, hilarious, everything!
i just hope today will be a great and awesome day for you alright? may all your wishes and dreams come true and may you lead a more awesome life! with school opening in april, i hope your school life will be entertaining for you and that you'll always be in the pink of health! imissyou hahaha! xoxo

well i'm surfing the net now and talking to a few friends about stuff, hurhur.
i seriously cannot wait for tomorrow to come so i can finally meet up with my dearest Bby!!! *eggcited face*
tomorrow's his last paper so all the best to you yeah Bbycakes? make your sure try your utmost best and that you'll ace the paper! i'm sure of it cause i have complete faith in you^^V

i have this sudden urge to sell my fender stratocaster pfft. i do not have the foggiest idea why but maybe i'm getting more impatient in getting my 50D. i'll have to talk to Dad about my plan. God, i so want that 50D!! not a 450D nor a 1000D but a 50D. i wouldn't mind a 40D but yeah, 50D will be a bit better cause it has a 15megapixel resolution! awesome! but 40D's shutter speed is 0.2 frames faster than the 50D and it weighs a bit heavier than the latter. okay shut up jahizarghhh.

oh yesterday my parents and i drove to the Railway Station to have dinner, just the three of us heh.
Dad ordered 10 sticks of chicken satay and some tahu bakar while i had my usual potato ball!!! *thrilled face* the potato ball was nicer than usual teheee and gosh i practically licked off the whole bowl of soup and ball clean! see, i'm so in love with potato ball! bahahahawhaw. we MUST eat at Railway Station one day alright Bby? we must!

i've finally decided about something and i know that i will/must be industrious from now onwards to strive for what i want/had in mind. i guess this is it then fellow readers! i think i'll post in blogger now but it's up to my mood. i'm dead knackered and the goggle box in the living room is yelling at me to come and switch it on.
more updates on grocery shopping with Bby scheduled tomorrow when i'll find the time then!
goodbye and good day to all of you! xoxo

mummumummahh.

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 07:49:20 GMT

And I'm never gonna leave your side.
And I'm never gonna leave your side, again.
still holding on, girl, I won't let you go,
Cause when I'm lying in your arms I know I'm home.

oh haiiii there. it's a saturday and i like saturdays occasionally. heh. so i just got home from shopping with Mum at TM. bought clothes (oh yippppeee) and collected my contact lenses from universal optical. gosh, i still have not decided if i would want a single-sized white/ivory/eggshell bed frame or a queen sized one. pffft. oh-so-fickle, just like the shop in haji lane. teheheheeee. oh grocery shopping with Mum was kinda fun!

after buying my clothes from C.O and done collecting my contact lenses, Mum and i headed to NTUC tog et our groceries. i was fascinated by the flower crabs that were ~~tortured~~ floating around in the tanks cause they were kinda tied u[. okay how sad. no, really, like it's kinda painful right? so yeah. but i like flower crabs! i think they're q-te to look at and they're so deeelish and yummeh yummeh to eat eat eat! :D

okay, i love crabs teheee. bought more vegetables and oh i don't like pickles. eek. i carried the basketful of groceries and my toiletries whee and we paid for our purchases and bought a cake from polar and took 65 home. Mum's eating her lunch now cause she only ate apple pie when i was eating my filet o fish meal at MacDo's in TM just now. hmm.

oh, looking at my title for this post i can't help but to laugh like there's no tomorrow 'cause apparently, mr herman of the fire nation aka bestie here is darn afraid of that voice who says it in the poker face song! hilarious lah you! okay i taste blood. i accidentally poked my finger with a needle, ouch. i want a bottle of Perrier water please and a canon eos 50d too please okay do i sound too demanding i'm sorry i feel like watching the curious case of benjamin button again! ): can we watch it again please Bby?? *eager and hopeful face*. i miss him so so much and tuesday seems like forever! like eternity! oh btw Bby bought like 3 bottles of CK Eternity EDT yesterday! i am so jealous tehehehehawhawhawhurhur but i still white musk but Eternity is sexxy, on him! :D! okayyokay before i blab more nonsense i shall uhm, say goot bai to all of you.
i wanna post in my Blogspot too. okay toodles! xoxo

i miss my beloved hot adorable totally drop dead gorgeous sungguh handsome extremely cute/q-te x infinity eccentric boyfriend who is super random! ): WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

being miss popular isn't always everything, Dear

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 07:41:56 GMT

Tell me once again
That you'll love me to the death
And should I die, you swear that you will come for me
As I fade away, you reach out your arms

Dear Girls everywhere,
have you ever noticed how every girl tends to be jealous of one another?
have you ever felt as if your self-esteem dropped to an all time low when you see a pretty/gorgeous/beautiful/whatever girl's profile or when you're out in the streets?
have you ever felt that those "pretty" girls you see are just content on the outside and not on the inside?
have you ever wanted to be in their shoes?
have you?

okay, maybe just once. but looking back right now, life wouldn't be great if you were her would it?
firstly, your good friends, best friend (i'll never desert my best friend, yes herman i won't), everything "friend-ish" won't be your friends anymore would it?
secondly, that girl you once wished you were in her shoes, she might be pretty, gorgeous and flawless on the outside, but is she really happy on the inside?
next, that particular girl that you once wished you were her, isn't she everything, you are NOT?
wouldn't that be super boring, truth be told?
for those girls who once felt they wanted to be that "IT" girl, think twice, will you?
life isn't always all about having the most flawless looking face, the most beautiful hair, the prettiest of clothes, the expensive labels for all things material, everything.
life would definitely suck if i only possess all in the above sentence and no funtastic friends!
oh and for those girls on Friendster who're like carbon copies of another, don't live a lie.
life isn't all about being purrrrfect.
it's about you trying to accept your imperfections be it on the outside or on the inside.
so if you're still trying to imitate *inserts name here* pose with your DSLR or point-and-shoot cameras, i suggest you halt that "photography" session and just, be yourself for a day.
believe me, you'll finally be able to see another side of life, which is more beautiful, and more,
YOU.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 06:24:08 GMT

haiii! okay well i'm actually supposed to be studying Maths for this Saturday's test (right, Bowei?!), i guess.
but well, being the procastinator that i am, i'll be studying sooooon! i'm just waiting for the water to boil for my instant noodles, heh. so yesterday, i met up with Bby after his exams and the initial plan was to study tehehe but uh, i DID study a bit okay a bit!!! :} well, met up with him at Tampines MRT station around 1 and we trained to Changi Airport (Bby's idea, my decision, SWEET!) to study. headed to MacDo's and found an empty table.
hmm, Bby bought my double cheeseburger meal and whilst waiting for him, i read up on a few Maths stuff.

ate the meal, and talked! whee, gosh thank God we met up yesterday or i think i'll die of emptiness, really. not seeing Bby since Saturday is like... death for me!!! ): serious. so yeah. well, we ate the meal and then decided to head back to Tanah Merah? tehehehawhawhurhurr. trained to Tanah Merah, switched to EW line and alighted at Tampines again. waited for Bby's friend's drummer friend to give the 3D specs to her. HAHA. ohmygosh those specs were like since last year, yes Bby? ^^v

okay so then we took 3 to Pasir Ris and alighted at the E!Hub bus stop. went to my secret hideout and took many peeks! woo! hahaha. i'm a hairpee kid. okay well, then Bby and i took 21 and he alighted at the stop before SAFRA tampines! now i'm really missing him! )': oh, yeah, Bby's at his grandparents place now hxc mugging his brain out, and here i am LJ-ing. tsktsk. i feel like volunteering for a cause overseas, anyone interested?

i'm super bored! oh i still want my 50D (big big big pleading eyes)!!!! ohmygosh i think i'm going insane!!! help. okay, no. Asha got attached a few weeks back to Walter, who, in Emma's opinion is super hot and drop dead, gorgeous. well what can you say? he's 19, from America and in the airlines industry, of course he'll be umm, hot! not to me though. i think the only guy who's like popular and hot to me from the Western side of the world is..... SHAWN MILKE!!! ah shut up jahizaaaaaaaarrgggghh! but i still love Bby^^V

i just uploaded a new peek in DA and wah, i think it looks cool tehehe. i feel like taking more more more peeks. should i call up my photographer friends? i'm sorry for neglecting you guys when you guys said you wanna photograph me but that was due to me being so busy! i'm all for being a model in your photos now! tralalalala. okay i can't wait for this Tuesday and Wednesday! Bby's exams are going to end this Tuesday and Sentosa for the both of us this Wednesday!!!!! :D!

okay i wanna read a few books and do Maths and eat my oodles of nooodlessss! *inserts the huge =D emoticon * BAI!

Valentine's Day, 3rd Month Anniversary! ^^V

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 07:01:39 GMT

haiiiihaii. i'm real sorry that i've been neglecting my LJ these past five days. oh well. hehe. last thursday was spent with izzahzo and we walked around town to find a present for Bbycakes^^ tehehee. she met me at bedok interchange and we trained to city hall and walked practically everywhere! went to countless retail outlets to find the perfect present for Bby, pondered for a bit, and finally we decided to eat at MacDo's first before makign a proper decision? yeah. ate the usual double cheeseburger meal without pickles and izzah had her nuggets meal ( i think? ) tehehehe!!!

next, headed to puma to look at some stuff and finally we headed down to ZARA to check out the latest designs. i found this tee about recycling which i kinda adore but izzah said it'd look quite cheap and definitely not ZARA material, hence i continued looking around and found this absolutely amazing tee! even izzah nodded her approval for it so off i went and purchased it^^v yeayyy!

next, we trained back to Tampines and i met Bby while izzah bought macs for dinner i think before heading off to her floorball practice! tralalala. Bby sent me home and talked about certain stuff? yeahhh! i slept at like 1 and woke up at 3 again before dozing off at 3 +++. sighs, my sleeping hours have seriously gone haywire):

the next day, a friday, i was supposed to meet up with Germicide to walk around Haji Lane and get some stuff and oh, to get some stuff for her special someone. gah, in the end was cancelled due to some, problems. ): but it's okayy! i went to IKEA all by myself and purchased this long black and white poster depicting a light house on the island somewhere. i really really love the way the photo/poster could invoke a thousand emotions/feelings in me/anyone just by looking at it. it's surreal, really. ahahah. there goes my typical obsession with black and white classics ^^v

okay well yeah, then cabbed to Tampines MRT where i then trained to Orchard to meet Kakak Nana.
gahh, she told me to wait for her at the MacDonald's outside Shaw and eat first whilst waiting for her. so i dined alfresco hurhur and ate my nuggets EVM alone. -_- kesian jahizaaaaargh. HEH. whatever. those Twilight people came pouring in shortly after Kakak came and yeah i texted Bby and Suria. then i talked to Bby on the phone! wooo. awesome heh. the final screening was scheduled at 7 so we went up to the 13th level on Friday the 13th. freaky much? anni must be enjoying that day ohmygawdddddd! he texted me a hairpee friday the 13th on like, almost 1 a.m. in the morning? imma kill you best friend! :D!

okay whatever, after the screening, Kakak Nurul, Kakak Nana and i ate dinner with Cik Mas and May Yah at cita rasa 21 at Tampines woo! stupid stall vendor, f*cking cheat my feelings! she told me that the seafood noodle was crispy mee but when i got it, it's just plain mee. QJGFDSKZGFHFXHGVBXKFDBCV!!!!! *annoyed* but whatever. okay then Cik Mas and Mak Yah sent me home!

the next day, which was the 14th of Feb (Valentine's Day!) tehehehee was fun, eggciting, thrilling, electrifying, surreal, simply awesome, (!!!!!). met Bby at like 12 near the ticketing machine in Tampines MRT station. gave him the ZARA bag and he gave me a card encased in a yellow envelope. wheee. then we held hands and headed to Outram Park via train. trained to Harbourfront where we were supposed to catch THe Curious Case of Benjamin Button but wth! the tickets were like, almost sold out and the queue was like 11 miles long? my goodness. so then we trained to Orchard and bought tickets to The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button scheduled at 2:30 p.m. in Shaw Lido. the movie was well, a real tearjerker! the movie was like almost 3 hours long but i felt that the whole story line was really really good. the almost 3 hour plot was necessary, really! if there was any snippet of the movie cut off, then the movie wouldn't be ... complete? yes.

i started crying when the movie was ending because well, the story was touching and really really sad. seriously, this movie should be given a 5 star rating, well because to me, this is the best movie ever made! (:
Bby comforted me when i cried and told me everything will be alright so yeah. Brad Pitt should be given an Oscar/Grammy for his role in playing Benjamin Button, really! i can't think of any other actors that actually portray such a brilliant role after watching the epic movie! wow.

but in the movie, i felt like it was the first date all over again, when i leaned close to Bby and kissed him softly on the lips. the feeling was surreal, it felt so magical you know? tehehehe. iloveyouFariqIrfan! the movie ended with Benjamin passing away in the form of a little infant and so we made our way to the exit. went to the ladies then met Bby outside where we then trained to Marina Bay and took the shuttle bus to the Marina Barrage.

gosh, the queue for the shuttle bus were literally packed with couples galore! couples holding bouquets of flowers, teddy bears, plush toys, etc etc. finally, we got inside the bus and reached the Barrage around 5:40 p.m ++? yeah. we walked up and sat at one of the cement seats and took peeks! tehehehawhawhurhur.

then, when the sun was setting, Bby told me to close my eyes ...
it took quite a while but the waiting paid off when i felt something cold on my neck. Bby then clasped the 'thing' together at the ends and asked me to open my eyes. when i opened them, i saw the silver necklace with a heart pendant around my neck, and i was lost for words! that was the best Valentine's gift/Day ever! ^^V so then i kissed/hugged him and i asked him to open my present for him. but since he told me to close my eyes, i told him to do the same as i undid the packaging. finally, i showed him the ZARA shirt i bought for him and he said thank you wheee. thank you B for that Perlini's Silver necklace, that meaningful Valentine's Day Card, treat to the movie and for being with me this whole 3 months! thank you!

more photos on Facebook! ^^V

that was definitely, the best Valentine's Day ever! okay i'm really lazy to blog more about life so yeah this is basically what happened on Saturday, Sunday, Monday + Today

Saturday;

had late night supper at some coffee shop in Bedok North with Mum and Dad.
showed Mum the necklace Bby bought for me
cleaned up my room a bit
zZzZzZzZz of to Zzzz monster land

Sunday;

Dad came home around 1:30 p.m. so Mum booked a table for three at Sakura Buffet in Clementi for dinner since we're going to miss lunch anyway.
cleaned up my room again
read The Witches by Roald Dahl (kid's story book!!!!!) woo.
lay down in bed for a while and counted guitars on my Epiphone poster
texted Bby all the way
showered, got dressed and Dad drove us to Clementi's Sakura Buffet
reached there and got assigned to one of the tables
i found out the place was like two levels
we got the lower level
got annoyed cause i couldn't find my sushi
found out sushi was in level two!
was darn hairpeee and took as many sushi as i could
ate many more stuff
finally got bloated then we headed home.

Monday;

revised Maths for a bit for Saturday, felt nervous
texted Bby after he finished his revision
he was with Fairul in between Bugis and City Hall .... (!!!!)
cooked instant noodles with egg for myself watched the google box for a bit
went online, ignored a few people, SORRY!
talked to Hermanni and he told me about this girl who wanted to be his best friend
asked him who's his best friend
he said i could be his first girl best friend
i readily agreed to it
he went off for work
texted Bby
talked to Bby on the phone!! (=
waited for Mum to come home
ate dinner, cleaned up most of my room
CAN'T WAIT FOR MY NEW BED AND TO PAINT THE WALLS WITH MURALS!
(yes you heard it right yours truly here will get a new bed, new furniture {Study table, wardrobe, curtains, room accessories, everything bedroom and of course i'll paint my walls with murals!} gosh can't wait can't wait!!!!!!)
slept...

today? well, Bby's at his grand parents place studying while i'm at home listening to the radio, LJ-ing and Anni is helping me with my html codes for MySpace. i'm going to study soon and cook myself something for lunch. i haven't eaten since morning ): how saddening, not. okay well. gootbai everyone! can't wait can't wait can't wait for my bed wheeeee and new furniture and to paint my walls with murals! got plenty of colourful/interesting/electrifying ideas in my head now wooo.

Happy Hairpee 3rd Month to Us Bbycakes! Iloveyou!!!

Dear Bby, thank you for being there for me when i needed someone the most, to comfort me when i had a nervous breakdown, to cheer me up when i'm down, to be my shoulder to cry on, to be with me through thick and thin, to laugh with me, to get high with me, to do everything with me(: being with you has gotta be the most sensible thing i've ever done in my whole 17 years of annoyance on earth, really. you taught me the true meaning of love, you showed me that being patient pays off and you cared for me like no one else ever did. you made me realize that in this life, there's many simple pleasures that one can only enjoy with in another's company. i want us to last forever, i've made up my mind. there's no one else on Earth i'd rather be but you, and only you. let's grow old together alright Bbycakes? we'll have fun, i'm sure of it! 3 months of togetherness, 3 months of sheer hairpeeness, 3 months of pure love, 3 months with the guy i love with my whole heart. iloveyou Fariq Irfan B. Shariffudin, forever and always! good luck for your exams too! we'll go out as soon as your exams are over! xoxo

our love story^^V

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 05:44:45 GMT

haiii. Bby just sent me a text about this love story between two teens and yes obviously you know who those two love birds are but here's the longer version yeah? hope all of you will love it(:

he was a boy and yes she was a girl. he was the perfect epitome of the hot guys you seemed to stumble upon on Friendster, those guys with really nice hair and usually, personalities that'll only seem to have their friends drawn to them. every one and any one else was excluded from their perfect circle of friends. however, this guy was not like any other guy that girl thought he was. the first time he viewed her private profile and 'messaging off' profile, she did not bothered to view him though his default picture was indeed, very attractive and was beckoning her to view him. so second grew to minutes and minutes trickled to hours as hours turned to days and he viewed her once again. this time, however, she followed her instinct and went ahead and viewed him.

the first thing that rang inside her head was this; "typical popular guy whom every other teenage girl wanna have 'cause he's hot and in full demand *scrolls down and sees with narrowed eyes the truck loads of comments from well, the opposite sex*". however, what really drew her to him from his Friendster page was his photos. the way every photo in his album of self portraits seem to invoke feelings in her just by looking at them and the way each photo seemed to be telling a story of their own. yes, other people also communicate with others through their photos or self-portraits but it isn't every day that you find a guy who bothers to snap good-angled photos of himself as well as edit it with such grace and fluidity. she was speechless. she didn't hesitate there and then to add him and yes, there goes the familiar click from the left side of the mouse.

he commented her in gratitude for adding him and all but what she initially thought was that he'll just be like those popular guys and would slowly, just disappear from your sight once they got bored of you and just stick to their circle of friends. this guy was different. he wasn't like them. instead, from his point of view, he was thrilled to know that her Friendster page had the epic Remembering Sunday song by All Time Low and that she was another ATL fan like him too. so she added him up on MSN soon after.

he opened a new window on MSN and they just started conversing with each other through this online portal. she felt that his personality was infectious and he was indeed, a really amiable guy. in fact, the most amiable guy that she have ever met in her entire life! she was, once again speechless. but soon however , they didn't talk as much as they did but she did not once forget about him. there he was, his IM on her list of Favourite people, ranging from her best friend all the way to her weirdest friends. she knew all at once that he was someone, different. someone who's not like any other guy she knew. someone who'd soon be the one that bring about the spring in her step.

one day however, she grew desperate for the song "I Kissed A Girl" which was covered by this band called Attack Attack! she knew right away that he'd have the song, she just had the gut feeling that he had and so she simply proceeded to ask him and not any of her other 299 contacts on MSN. her gut feeling, it turned out, was right and he did possessed the song which he sent to her almost at once. they began conversing once again and the conversation grew more and more fun and that was the particular conversation which spurned him on to gave her his number as he claimed that he's usually bored. words simply failed her as she saw his numbers on her desktop screen and she immediately stored the precious numbers in her cell.

the following day, she texted him with just a simple text saying haiii and her nickname for him which she created all by herself. he was the only person that she did not insert her name at the end of the text as she had the same gut feeling that he'll know it was her who texted him and not just some random unknown from the streets. they began texting one another and conversed about practically anything under the sun. even though she was usually not shy when texting her close guy friends, she felt cripplingly shy when it came to him. she felt that it was the starting of a new and perfect beginning. boy was she ever right.

she got thrilled one day after watching HSM 3 with her friends at shaw lido and she caught the trailer of Bolt on the silver screen. she was completely enraptured by the fat little hamster which moves by the aid of his round bubble. she immediately expressed her excitement (or for her, EGGCITEMENT) for Rhino, the hamster to him via SMS as soon as the movie ended and her determination to catch it as soon as it was released in the local cinemas.

to put it lightly, he was influenced by her about her obsession with Rhino and he researched for him on the net and yes, he could see why she was thrilled by the little hamster. so he decided that they should catch it as soon as it hits the cinemas. she was, stunned when he told her about watching the movie but she readily agreed to it. however, she mistaken the date of release around two weeks before it's official release and thank goodness HE had the sense to Google the proper release dates. however, this is what really happened on the 15th of November 2008 . . . . .

15 November 2008 was like any ordinary day on Earth but it was the day that Emma, the girl's close friend would be leaving for Hong Kong, needless to say, forever. so Emma, Kar, Emily and her hung around the airport and took a great deal of photographs to mark the last day Emma would be in Singapore. of course, it'd be a tear jerker once Emma is finished with the customs check but every one will soon have to leave one find day... wouldn't they? Beverly came shortly after and together, they wished Emma a pleasant goodbye and a safe trip back to Hong Kong. however, Emma simply couldn't get her Canon printer on board the airplane and so, she had to give it to the particular girl who'd soon meet the boy that'd change her life, forever.

the girl knew, that that particular day would be the best day to meet him and catch a movie together. she knew at once that it'd be it. the day that would draw him and her closer than any one else could ever thought possible. she just knew it, she did. . so with Emma's printer cradled in her arms, she traipsed slowly to the nearby chairs with Beverly to patiently wait for him. she'd called him earlier to inform him of the change in venue to meet and the update in her having a printer which of course she'd need someone to lend a helping hand to carry it. they agreed to meet at the chairs near the sky train.

he came shortly after, after around twenty minutes of waiting and during that span of twenty eventful minutes, she'd mentally gone through a silent bout of paranoia in her head. she debated with herself if she should run and leave this first date hanging or that she'd simply just wait until he arrives and have the best first date ever. she even made frequent trips to the ladies' to check on herself and to see herself in the mirrors, a plain jane dressed in a white translucent white shift dress tucked in immaculately in her drainpipe jeans and her brown overgrown bob of hair. she bit her lip as she looked at herself, afraid of the outcome that'll happen in less than twenty eventful minutes. finally, she took in a deep lungful of breath and decided that she'd stay and wait patiently for him. in her whole 16 years of living on Earth, that was definitely, the most sensible decision she had made.

she was nervous and cripplingly shy. she even asked Beverly to look around for him and all and finally he didn't disappoint when Bev said with a whisper "jaz, he's here. that's him right? (points her index nearby to a slim guy walking towards them)". out of her corner of her eye, she saw his slim figure, dressed in a white graphic tee shirt effortlessly coupled with faded grey skinnies and a pair of Macbeths was his chosen shoes for that evening. when he had finally reached her, he said a friendly ‘haiii’ and Beverly immediately said goodbye and retreated to the MRT station. the next thing that came out of his beautiful lips were 'could you put these in your bag please?(gestures to his wallet + hoodie)' she said yeah but then she felt shy, she was usually not that shy around any of her close guy friends and she immediately knew, that he might be the one… he helped her carry the heavy printer and they made their way towards the MRT.

once safely ensconced in the MRT, they began a constant stream of talking and many things just kept popping out of their mouth. anything and everything were mentioned in their conversation. they switched trains in Tanah Merah station and proceeded to Pasir Ris for the movie date. finally, they reached Pasir Ris and walked towards E!Hub with the printer in between them, the particular object that drew them together. he's strong, she silently mused, as she looked on as he carried the printer with his right hand. once they reached E! Hub, they were practically debating with each other if they should keep the printer with them and bring it along with them into the theatre or just chuck it somewhere and (hopefully), someone might just take the prized printer.

so after much debating, she was finally all for chucking the printer somewhere, but where? so... they agreed in leaving the printer in the basement car park. they were practically keeling over their sides with laughter once they left the printer lying innocently in the car park. next, they proceeded to the Nebo level and purchased tickets (his treat, as he promised earlier) not to Bolt, but instead to Madagascar Escape 2 Africa. while waiting for the theatre to be opened, they walked around the place, and a steady stream of conversation kept them going. she was very much fascinated by the transparent balls in the place where she mentally/affectionately refer to 'fun dazzle e!hub' and so fascinated was she that she knocked her head against the glass panel by accident! being the kind boy he was, he asked her if she was alright and patted her head softly. she said yes but deep down in her heart she felt stunned and also embarrassed with herself. stunned because she didn't expect him to enquire about her head and embarrassed due to the incident.

however, that hilarious incident spurned him on to take her hand in his and hold it tightly. she felt herself blushing but thank goodness for the dim lighting, her face didn't completely show her cheeks reddening. after much walking around E! Hub the time finally came for them to enter the cinema and watch the highly-anticipated movie. he bought popcorn and coke for them and showed their ticket stubs to the ticketing person IC who gestured to the hall in which they were supposed to be in, Hall 5. inside the cinema hall, they found their seats and she sat first followed shortly by him.

the movie have not started yet but they were watching the usual commercials flooding the huge silver screen before them. initially, she had thought that the seats next to her wouldn't be occupied by any one but boy was she wrong. a group of adolescents joined them shortly with hair styles reminding her very much of her awesome guy friend from RP (inserts name here) finally, after much waiting, the movie commenced with the scene of the adorable lion cub and his dad in the wild plains of Africa. the story line was indeed promising, with each and every scene cleverly done by their makers but there was this one scene, which changed the whole date altogether.

this scene was the one in which King Julien, in his nonsensical pompous voice, said to Melmon the giraffe after his long and completely irrelevant speech, "you look into her eyes, and tell her, how much you hate her". this scene had him and her looking into each other's eyes and soon, their heads drew nearer and their lips met for a fraction of a second before they shared their first kiss. she felt sparks fly and her heart was hammering hard against her chest. that first kiss in the cinema was surreal and beautiful; totally unplanned, but it came on smoothly, like fate had it carved out perfectly for both of them. as soon as the movie ended, they made their way towards the exit but now, the atmosphere felt different.

(she hadn't noticed this at first but after their first epic kiss, she could see his perfect lips, properly. they weren't like any other lips she had set her eyes on, but in fact, a perfect cupid's bow that were unmistakably the envy of many boys and girls around town.)

not different in a bad way, but different in a very surreal way. his warm hands found her soft hands once more and they walked slowly to the bus stop, but this time, she felt a new found spring in her step. she felt as if she was on top of the world but she was shy to ask if this first date meant anything to him. soon, the bus stop came to view but they settled finally in taking the MRT back to Tampines where she could board 65 back home and him, 292. she didn't want the date to end, oh no she didn't but she kept that particular thought to herself.

finally, when they reached Tampines, they walked to the bus interchange together, hand in hand and he hugged her goodbye before heading off in the opposite direction for his ride home. once she was inside the familiar territory of the 65 double-deck, she received a new text message from him saying how he had a great time on that day and how they should go out soon together again. she was rendered temporarily speechless, she was, but deep down, she knew. she had this feeling that maybe, just maybe, he felt the same way about her too, but she didn't want to say it, due to her being so shy. so she texted back saying yes and all and how she had an enjoyable time with him too and how thankful she was for him treating her to a splendid evening out.

once she reached home, she was practically floating! her mind was a whirlwind of images, from the moment he walked towards her all the way to the final goodbye hug. boy, was she a happy girl for that day! she grinned from ear to ear as she undressed slowly which followed shortly after with a long warm shower. that night, was the first night she dreamt of Fariq Irfan B. Shariffudin. that night, she fell head over heels for the boy who brought the new spring in her step, the smile which reached her eyes and the new radiance which she found in herself. that particular night marked the beginning of more new dates to come. that night, was the 15th of November 2008.

well, their next date came sooner that she'd have expect. that day was the 17th of November 2008, a Monday to be precise. the day was as epic as their first date but that particular day was the milestone in both of their lives; they chose that day as the day they got attached. when they came to the decision of getting together, she felt as if she was on cloud nine hundred and ninety-nine, she really did. she knew, just like on their first date, that he was the one she had been waiting for all these while. not only was he beautiful on the outside, he was also beautiful on the inside. his amiable personality, his infectious laughter and his sincere smiles were a fraction of the many characteristics of her now significant other.

you might now start to wonder what have become of them now, right? well, they are now shortly coming into their 3rd month of happiness together and every day, her love for him intensifies more and more, just like this quote, "for you see, each day i love you more. today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow". though she still feel butterflies every time she meets him, she know deep down in her heart that this feeling will never fade away. it's like falling in love for the first time and not letting go of it forever. to her, she have never felt so much love in her lifetime and to her, this adorable now se7enteen year old boy is her angel in disguise sent to her from High Above. he's the one that'll be the one to grow old wit her, for eternal life. the one who's her significant other, and the one who's like her uncannily in so many ways. he's been there for her through thick and thin, he was her shoulder to cry on when her days where shrouded in melancholy, her partner in crime when they lost their way in practically any where in Singapore, and her everything. together, they had shared the most love no one else could ever thought possible in their lifetimes, in their almost 3 months of togetherness. with him, she feel secure, safe and at ease. with him, she could be herself once more, not a girl with a fake masque on and one with a bunch of insecurities. with him, she could finally, let go of her scarred past.

this girl was me.

i love you Fariq Irfan B. Shariffudin,
forever and always!
for no one, and i mean no one, can ever replace you in my heart.
for you, i will(:

"Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me"
- Remembering Sunday, All Time Low (So Wrong, It's RIght)

missing you ):

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 08:10:34 GMT

I MISS THIS HOT HOT HEAT + DROP DEAD SUNGGUH GORGEOUS BOYFRIEND OF MINE SO MANY MANY MANYY!!!
>:'(

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
<3

haiiii there world! i suddenly had the mojo (OH! my goreeeee i'm using that word teheee) to go to LJ and blog, hahahahah???!?!?!?!??! shut up i know i'm annoying HEH.
okay well, you see, i had zeee sudden urge to blog 'cause i miss Bby! ):
it's been... two whole days since i met him! i.can.die. (!!!!)
okay well, yeah. so i had a really good sleep yesterday and i had a vehhvehh weird dream which i am so not going to type down here like there's no tomorrow cause it's super bee-yawn long (look at the yawn) and yeah well basically it's totally weird like you know, eyes-popping-out weird kind when you see something weird and yes your eyes pop out hence that weird expression? HAHAHAHA, yesyes, so i will NOT type it down. ask me if you want. hint; it has something to do with......... err, people :}
see how annoying jahizargh is. i know i know!!!

i am now hairpee cause i ate my breakfast at home and not outside with family as i'm having my horrible and super x-cruciating monthly cramps >:( had nuggets, fries and vadai and now i'm quite full.
i don't have much of an appetite when my monthlies come, weird right?
most of the other girls would be ravenous all day long and gorge on whatever they can set their beautiful eyes on but not me... i'll lose all appetite to eat and lose like 1kg or two just by not eating!
HEH. so ate breakfast at home and did some new bracelets 'cause the cramps were hurting as hell.
laid in bed and listened to Alesana and counted the Epiphones on my Epiphone guitar poster.
random. around 12, my parents left for a wedding which of course, i wouldn't go AAAASSS;

i'm not huge on weddings at the void deck unless they are those people who are related to me on a first degree basis.
weddings mean food and as of today, when my monthlies kick in, i'll find myself not having the appetite to stuff myself with food oh glorious food!!! weird right? other girls tend to gorge during their monthlies but not me, i'll lose all appetite to eat... >:(
i like nice weddings held at hotels, i have no idea why!
i think i know why! the cake won't melt. *no link*
HAHAHAHA, the list goes on (:

met Kakak Nurul, Kakak Nana and AIshah (Twilight Singapore) at Tamp MRT station's platform.
trained all the way to city hall and i kept quiet all the way :'(
texted Bby on and on and was hairpeeier^^V
walked to suntec and had Pasta Mania for luncheon! *yeah BBY! it's finally Halal! (do the monkey dance)

our orders;
Kakak Nana's - Lasagne + Coke Light
Kakak Nurul - Spaghetti Bolognaise (fettucini) + Iced Mountain
Aishah - Spicy Chicken (penne) + F&N Orange
Me - Creamy Chicken (fettucini) + Iced Lemon Tea.

grrrrawewerhhh, i made a HUGE mistake of ordering fettucini cause i wanted fussilli ): ): ):
okay whatever, the creamy chicken was awesome and after we finished eating we headed to Eng Wah.
Bride Wars is an awesome movie of course and i feel like wearing that Vera Wang wedding gown on my big day... here it is ^^V

so well, we headed to the Esplanade to check the Twilight Movie Collectibles at Popcorn Pop and all then Kak Nurul, Aishah and i trained back to Tampines. we conversed about Friday's Indo horror story on Suria and Imogen Heap tehehehawhawhurhur. Aishah and Kak Nurul headed back home whilst i met Mum at Universal Optical, Century Square to get my 1/2 year's supply of contact lenses.

checked my prescription
took out my soft contact lenses and allowed my eyes to rest for 10 minutes
i looked like a librarian with outgrown long bangs with my horn-rimmed glasses
had my eyes checked
results; my astigmatism went up tad bit but i'm still sad
my degree for my left eye has also increased
got even gloomier
now i must take g00fd care of my eyes.

so Mum paid the deposit for my Bausch & Lomb Purevision Toric silicon soft lenses and then we headed to The Body Shop to get my seaweed skin care and my white musk EDT. i bought a double cheeseburger w/out pickles on the way home though(: yeayyy! hahaha. i'm suddenly feeling all psyched for next Saturday!
Val's Day! tehehehehawawhurhur. oh, btw, i have finally cut my outgrown bangs.
it's shorter but at the eye brows. of course, long for bangs, but i hate short bangs.
they look tacky!!! :D
okay bye, i wanna colour my butterfly.

random updates teheheeeeeeeee3333

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 13:22:38 GMT

haiii LJ! it's been like, eons since i've blogged tehehehe forgive me!!! ^^V

okay so i shall blog about my annoying life heh now!
well, here goes!

Thursday, January 29 2009

HAPPPPY AWESOME SWEET/SALTED SE7ENTEEN RAWRRRHIM STEWART!!! ^^V
(i'll beat you &&&&& Gavin tmr at pool oh yes i will!)

okay let's all skip Friday, Saturday and Sunday's posts alright? hahahah(: sorry!

Monday 2nd of February 2009
nothing much happened? i just flipped through a few personal drawings and willed myself to draw a few stuff when i'm free. oh well, at least i met Bby for a while and we had fun right Bbycakes?? tehehehawhawhurhur^^V ILOVEYOUVEHVEHVEHHHMUCHHHH!

Tuesday 3rd of February 2009
did a few stuff at home and read up on a few things, learnt a few interesting things too!
hahaha, all on photography^^V tehehehawhawhurhur. gosh, i want that EOS 50D badly!
i found a really really AWESOME/G00D offer online which sells a brand new EOS 50D with 17-85mm EF-USM lenses you know!!! vehvehvehh tempting really! oh well, i guess i'll have to katam Quran first or work real hard for my job^^V

Wednesday 4th of February 2009

headed down to Marican to see Nyayi and Safia Aaqilah a.k.a Yaya my super adorable/cuuuuute baby cousin!!!! ^^V i bought for her hello panda on the way there and she was THRILLED/super eggggcited when she saw me at the back of Marican!!! totally awesome! tehehe, she is super cute i tell you!
she talked to me (in toddler language, well, she's really smart/clever now, she can form full sentences mind you! and she's only what? 2 1/2 years old!!!!!!!!) about her school, Tumble Tots (darn cute right?!?!) and kept singing the Tumble Tots song while i ate my maggi ^^V tralalala. met Bby after that actually to find a job but hmm..nothing much? oh well, we did have fun right Bby?? *winks* ^^V

Thursday 5th February 2009

woke up at 8:45 but fell asleep once again and ended up waking up at 9:45 a.m. dragged myself to the bathroom to shower and then dressed up in my tulle polka dot skirt and exotic journey tee coupled with heaps of bangles and bracelets^^V. texted Randall/ Ryan Titttsbotttom about today and laced up my Vans and headed to the bus stop. missed 66 and 228 by mere seconds so i hopped on board 22 instead. alighted at Tampines Interchange and got on the train. by the time i was in Simei, Randall texted me and said that he have reached City Hall already and was practically waiting for me at the platform haha!
okay, whatever, texted and said i'm coming and he called me a tortoise! meanie haha, whatever reindeer!
played F1 on Bby's PSP all the way to City Hall and met Randall. he was kinda annoyed but wth. crapped about some stuff and talked and talked. trained to Dover to meet Bby at the bridge. Randall then got thirsty and he bought us both polka green tea! ^^V! thanks! bahahaha. waited with Randall at the bridge and Bby came. he returned me my volcom wallet, and haha yes i left it with him and forgot to take it back and i returned his Everlast watch to him back! Bby and Randall exchanged names and then i hugged Bby gooot bai! ): hmmm. trained back to City Hall where Randall and i took the red line and alighted at Orchard. we decided to start at Wisma Atria first for our first venue in job-seeking! tehehehe. walked around and we asked countless shops and so on. i had to ask most of the time well cause Randall is shy tehehehe.
Randall commented on a few pretty girls that caught his eye and i was like right right.. GUYS!! *tsktsk.
headed to Takashimaya and tried Harley Davidson. there's hope though tehehehe. then we asked many more shops. i suddenly felt ravenous and so we walked to Shaw House from Taka. i bought a Double Cheesburger meal during the lunch hour promo and Randall simply bought a Double Cheese only.
he complained about the pickles, and yeah i wholeheartedly agreed with him!!!!
seriously, i have issues with..pickles! i simply, HATE/ABHOR/DETEST/DESPISE IT!!!
*inserts disgusted face*
okay, so then he told me about this couple which looks so totally wrong according to him. the convo was like this,

Randall: eh fuck lah the guy damn retarded and the girl so chio man. damn wrong lah wtf is wrong with the world?

Me: *looks around frantically* where sia?

Randall: there lah walk already later if we see them i show you.

Me: hahah okay!

ate and ate then went down the escalator where we DID meet the odd couple.
yeah, i got to agree with my weird friend, they do LOOK WRONG! pretty woman, not so handsome man.
hmm, maybe to Randall she looks appealing :O
we then walked around Paragon and Heeren and enquired for jobs in almost every one of the shops. Randall got petrified when he met his aunt by accident? he didn't realize it until they were practically beside each other! hahaha, so we rushed out of Paragon instantaneously! headed to Wisma again where Randall met his friend at Giordano. seems that his friend forgot him, how sad, well Randall WAS sad! hmm, right. hahah shall not elaborate further. enquired for F21 and more and more and more shops and Rawrrhim texted if i was free tmr and if i wanna play pool with him and Gavin at 4. texted back saying yes and asked Randall about pool hahaha he thought i was weird |: whatever! so we were darn knackered so we sat at the steps of Taka and just talked. he told me about __________ and i was like shocked but he thought i wouldn't allow him to do that. sighs, i just hope he quits, soon. at least he's not so addicted to it!!! ^^V
we then headed home and he trained back to Toa Payoh while i headed back to City Hall.
trained to Bugis and met Bby(: tehehehe. we headed back to Tampines and he topped up my EZ link for me. thank you Bby! ^^V he sent me home yeayy! sighs, i miss him now well at least we're texting each other wheeeeee~ okay i've yet to eat my dinner but my Mum is still cooking ah fcuk this okay good by333 everyone i'm seriously so shagged and knackered gahhhhh!

i'm looking forward to tmr where i WILL pawn Rawrrrhim Stewart and Gavin in pool!
HEH!
*brimming with eggcitement.

Je T'aime Fariq Irfan!
xoxo!

Tagged by cousin nong nong nong nong ago

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 08:34:05 GMT

Put your iTunes on shuffle.
For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW OUTRAGEOUS IT SOUNDS!
Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Sacred - Tokio Hotel (uhuh, so when someone asks me that question i'll answer with a melancholic song?!??!?!?!? thrilling uh!)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Hakuna Matata - Lion King Soundtrack (HAHAHAHAHAHA. I THINK THAT REALLY DESCRIBES MY PERSONALITY! TEHEHEHEHAWHAWHURHURRR)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Bulimic - The Used (O.O! aneroxia bulimia is a definite no-no! it's okay i still like the song^^)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Just Abuse Me - Air Traffic (ERR, okay?! don't abuse me! you abuse me i'll wipe your eyeballs!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Play With Fire - Hilary Duff (I LOVE! anyone care to play with me?!?!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Photo- Ryan Cabrera (uhuh "what it's like to touch you?" weird friends! don't touch me!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Life In Rain - Remy Zero (i think about my life in rain? uh, okay...)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Bleed, Everyone's Doing It - The Spill Canvas (wah, 2 + 2 = bleeding huh, sounds kinda wrong though!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Pages - There For Tomorrow (don't murder me pls HermAnni!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you still like them don't you^^)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE/LOVE?
Everytime I Look For You - Blink-182 (awesome! i look for Bby every time! like hide and seek!!!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Through The Fire And Flames - Dragonforce (whoaaaaaaaaaa, now that's more like it! sick guitar riffs yo! but yeah, kinda true, my life's like the song)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Ambrosia - Alesana (!!!!!!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
All At Once- The Fray (iheartFariqIrfan.iheartFariqIrfan.iheartFariqIrfan.iheartFariqIrfan.iheartFariqIrfan.iheartFariqIrfan)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Airborn - McFly (RIGHT)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Crush - David Archuleta (awwww, so sweet ohmygosh! ^^V)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
It's So Simple - Saosin (it's so simple to be afraid...)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Giant Balls Of Gold - Steve Vai (i DON'T think nor ponder about giant balls of gold eyyyyyyy!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Alchemy Sounded Good At The Time - Alesana (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA HILARIOUS!)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Lies - Gareth Gates (yeahh...nice song.. weird response)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance [ :'( ]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Well I Never Knew You Were So Much Fun - Drop Dead, Gorgeous (HAHAHA, this survey is fun? O.O)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Time Stands Still - The All-American Rejects (time standing still makes me laugh? HAHA, okay!??!)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Our Time Now - Plain White T's (cool!)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz (ah there you go! Jason Mraz answered my question! tehehehawhawhurhur!)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Attitude - Fireflight (HAHAHAHAHA, WTH? attitude scares me the most? the song is cool though!)

DOES ANYONE LIKES YOU?
Bounce - The Cab (funfair or what hahaha, yeah good if you like me and i don't like you, Bounce! *HAHAHAHA OKAY WHATEVER)

IF U COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD U CHANGE?
Memory - Sugarcult (tehehehe, maybe? "let's get back back back to where we lasted, just like i imagined, i could never feel this way" meaningful song, one of my top-rated songs!)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
I Want To Master Life And Death - Drop Dead, Gorgeous

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Poker Face - Lady GaGa (can't read my, no he can't read my Poker Face ^^V)

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 14:22:44 GMT

HAIIIII!! okayokay, so i've been away for like, 5 days? been to cameron highlands, kluang and kuala lumpur with my family teheheh by car, of course. had many, umm weird/nice/awesome/supernatural experiences there but all's well. i got to pluck strawberries and all of them are really sweet! REALLY!
oh i bought tea leaves too so if any of you would like some please nudge me tehehehe.
but my earl grey is for keeping unless you die die die die want it!
HEHEHEHE. okayokay, i shall blog about it another day now i'm so effing knackered and i wanna talk to Bby so yeah toodles everyone i love you to bits and pee-ces! (:

^^V
Iloveyou Fariq Irfan,
Forever and always!

^^

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 10:24:12 GMT

= <3

hahahahah hai everyone okay i'm bored and i'm supposed to be preparing for my La Salle interview but uh, i'll take a teensy weensy bitty time to post some nonsense here HEH!!!
oh, so yesterday, and the day before, i met up with Bby to head down to my old secondary school, BDS or if Hermannni should put it, Buddhist _____ School HAHAHAHAHA. okay inside joke tehehehe.
uh yeah, so we headed down to school and on the first, it was a vain attempt, really.
(aww dang now a vain attempt reminds me of the band *&^%$#!! thanks!)
hahaha. so umm yeah, Tuesday's trip to school, was well, boring.
whatever, so Bby and i went somewhere and had fun!!! aww yes yes yes (:
for Wednesday's trip to school, it was quite fruitful as i managed to finally get hold of my O level prep work (the black boards) for my La Salle interview. even though the interview doesn't sound really frightening, i still find myself being frightened. OKAY THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE AT ALL JAHIZA HAHAHA.
as in you know, i still umm feel, scared? HAHA. weird me, heh.
Bby lent me his PSP (yeayeayeayeayyyy and he returned me back my brolley and yearbook hawhaw hilarious! really wootswootswoots). ate donuts somewhere and had fun tralalala shan't elaborate further tehehe. i'm supposed to meet Bev and Nab today to head down to Bev's house but f, i'm too darn lazy to get on 21 and head to Loyang Point lah and sides i have to complete my portfolio for tomorrow's interview *shucks* so i spent most of today just drawing and sketching and writing ideas and still i can't find my marker for sketching asjjhfbxgm and yes i'm annoyed, hurhur.
oh, i didn't watch True Blood today 'cause i was too lazy to go to the web and let it load and instead i just edited a few nice peeks here and there and went online and watched other nice music videos i.e,
ALESANA'S LATEST VIDEO FOR THE AWESOME SONG, SEDUCTION!!
gosh, so awesome you know traalala. i didn't meet Bby today 'cause he'll end school late and he's going for his jamming session, like right now so yeah can't heh.
oh, the other day was Bby's Mum's Birthday and Bby and i walked around TM to get a simple yet elegant present for her. headed to P's (short form kkkay) and got this really nice bracelet wowowowow and yeah, vehveh awesome and gosh so glad his Mummyyy likes it!! ^^ yeayy.
i'm yet to play Bby's PSP and i'm dying of hunger, yet again when i just had like, instant noodles, one hour ago or so? okay i shall hunt for J.CO doughnuts in my fridge and uh, hehehe go and finish up my portfolio woots. alright alright i'm craving for classic fish and chips from Spize @ SImpang sighs maybe tomorrow after my interview hawhawhaw. okay bye bye bye i really wanna eat i'm famished.
PSP's calling out to me too bye everyone!
have an awesome day yeah!!!

If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you,
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you,
To pick up the pieces,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

Fariq Irfan<3